Hunni and Me on Late Night

Hard Times

Hello,

It has been a long time! Over these previous months it hasnt been going so well.

We always argue and fight. There is not a day that goes by without being mad at eachother

at some point. Erg, i hate it. But as of right now we are getting back on track. He asked me to

marry him on Octber 23 2011. And still we were fighting afterwards. Sigh. There were many

times i feel like giving up but then again i can't.

I know we are just going through hard times and i'll just have to coop with it.

We always talk things out but then the same thing happen again. He said it was my fault

I had issues and I'm not patient enough. Am i really not patient enough? Was it all my fault?

He said like he didn't have anything to do with it. Then finally i guess i had enough and i can't

stand it anymore. So one night while he was gonna go to work i called him and he flipped on

me so i was so feed up with it and was like Fuck this, hang up on him.

He always call me during his break at work and for that whole night and day he didn't bother

to call me at all. And i too was like i'm not giving up on myself like i always do, so i didnt bother

to call him either. Dang, feel like break-up. It's like do i ever cross your mind? Do u ever think

wat in the world am i doing, or how i'm feeling? or can i even sleep at night?

Wat does the future hold for us? all we do is FIGHT and ARGUE!

Even if we fight or w/so ever, if he really care and love me he would still seek to comfort me

b/c i kno he know i needed him the most when it comes to these issues.

But then again he called me the next day and act as if nothing had happen.

He's all lovely dovey on me. It's like Cmon why werent u like this earlier

so we wouldnt have this awkward moment.

It's like are u putting up an act on me?? huh??

But yeah i told him i'm not gonna call him and let him call me b/c everytime i call him he fliped

on me all the time. there is not a time he answer the phone happy

to hear my voice or knowing that i am calling him.

So makes me come to an conclusion that he likes to chase me instead of us being equal.

If he calls me then there is no problem but if i call him we always ARGUE!

Yeah was it really all my fault? He got issues!

Yeah, it was pretty intense. He is secretive towards me. Everything, he blame it on me.

If he doesnt want to talk, STAY AWAY from him, sometimes i wonder wat it will be like if he was here with me.

Will it be more intense or calm? Will we be making up like we do it now or differently.

I hate it when he talks to harsh to me, gets me mad and feel anger.

It's like dude calm down, why are u so mean!!?!?! You dont have to say it so HARSH!

Well yeah I did feel like i was too on his case. I'm always asking questions but he should know by

now that i ask a lot of questions and that is just how i am.

I kno he is really busy, his parents depend on him. Everything is always against him

But i want to be there you well atleast tell me a little info,

he always tell, don't worry, i'll tell u later. Then later he doesnt even tell me.

Ergg i get irratated but yeah i guess now i learn to just not care so much.

Just let him do watever he wants to do and don't ask questions.

If i don't ask questions or w/so ever then yeah we are fine, no arguements.

But if i just as one question like can he repeat wat he said he gets all mad at me.

Well he said he wants to marry me this spring!!! and This DEcember he is Coming to SEE ME!!!!

OMG!!! I'm the happiest woman on earth when he comes!!! lmaol

ahaha yeah, we are okay for now. Just got off the phone with that bigbutt!

There he goes again pissed off at me about this little thing earlier. But we are ok ehehe

He's at work now.

Gosh i would hate to leave my parents. :(

Why cant he just move up here with his family. Then everything is going to be great.

His family is here and my family is there :)

But that will only be in my dreams, seems like they already is not gonna come up here.

Man those three months of arguement and disagreement and fights had made

me loose my mind!

you kno i'm a really patient person and not jealous at all.

But dang he got off the edge! like seriously.

Every little things he do bothers me and makes me mad. I do agree with him i do feel like i don;t

have any patience with him.

But from beginning i do patience but as things goes on i can't be patient anymore

he has really push the button for me to get mad all the time,

Anyways I'm tired its late. lmaol I'll update sooner or later.

@12:18am

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