August 2013

Today I finally convinced my lovely handsome prince charming to take a photoshoot!

Hehehe lucky me!

In our traditional hmong wedding clothing; lets make these pictures as our

invitation letter to everyone in the near future!

When he was here for the week of December 10 till the 17.

Alright, that week was awesome!!!!

We had a great time together!!! It's the first time ever but seems like we have seen

eachother for years already!!! lol

Those memories will never be forgotten!!!

Well here we are back to the time of hard times again!!

He finally told me that he doesnt like talking on the phone.

okay?

Soooo How in the world are u gonna communicate with me??

I understand if u just live across town from me, we can see eachother whenever.

But Hunnie u live 8 states! away from me.

He should have thought of it before commiting into a long distance relationship.

Sigh.

He doesnt want to answer me, the calls, text messages and even on the damn phone.

I ask questions and he have a hard as time to answer and gets annoy by ut all the damn time!

Call me Super LATE!

Just makes me question us!!!

I have my girls asking me,

"How do u do it?

"Do u fully trust him?"

"Man, we can never do it like u do"

Well at first it was no problem asnwering those questions.

Now hummmm....I dont know how to answer them at all.

I'm starting to doubt him.

Well u can say i'm starting to get insecure.

His stories are starting to be bits and piece. I can hardly understand or make a positive

sense out of it.

I can cry myself to sleep everynight thinking about how we are starting to fall apart.

I'm trying to hold it together but umm to him he doesnt care.

He said he doesnt express his feelings.

Alirght i understand that but wat confuses me is when we are on base one (Getting to know),

he can express anything to me at all times.

Now how can u tell me u dont want to express ur feelings to me.

Was i dating a FAKE, this whole time?

I dont want to think that but that is wat u r putting in my mind.

I know all of right now i am putting the negative view but i cant help.

i cant really express it to anyone cuz he seems to get offend it from it.

Stupid because he doesnt even let me complain to him either.

if i want a conversation outta him, i have to either annoy him to death and start

an arguement.

Sigh.

He's starting to BS-ing me!!!

ERGGGG....

9:52pm

The Beginning of The REAL TEST!

Oh My!

It's such a maricle!!!

He is coming to see this SATURDAY DECEMBER 10 2011!!!

I can't wait! Can't sleep. eat or drink! ahahha I'm super excited!!! Although i am kinda

scared how i should tackle this big challenge! It's been such a long time since a GUY had come

over to my place...its gonna feel a bit awkward for my parents!

hehehe...

I'm so HAPPY!!! and INLOVE!!!!

SIGH.

I hope hes not taking advantage of me...

Last night we were talking about this subject and he said he'll never have the heart to do that!

Gosh got my hopes up really high! i know all guys says that but somehow i feel like

he's gonna do wat he says...

I have so much love, hope and faith in him...

I also feel like he does too.

I hate it when i fall inlove i cant control myself even though i know he is taking advantage of me.

I just hope that my Sweet Hunnie will not be like the other guys!

He'll be a man and do as wat he says he will.

He said he will marry me no matter wat.

He wants to marry me now but things are just too complicated atm.

Well i guess its a good choice not to marry now too b/c i'm not even done

with school and i dont want to waste my semester of school, MONEY!

Yeah got me falling inlove all over again as if it was the first time we talked.

He was telling me how much he adores me and how i was different from the other girls.

How i kept him late at night on the phone with me and skipping his homies for me.

AWwwwWWww he got me HEAd over Heals For HIM!

So earlier he told me that his dad and he was talking about our marriage.

Hun should have his uncles come see me if i am a good person.

If i am then he can marry me in the summer.

Got me thinking wat do they consider good? or Bad?

From wat i know for myself i have not gone or done anything bad in public or private.

I'm so closed inside the house that they probably wouldnt even know who the hell i am.

But all i know is my mommy was like she only have one daughter and if hun is not

gonna come live in MN he's not gonna be able to marry me. LMAOL

i was like oh dang! ahahha...

She is stepping up on the plate!!!! ahah she had an evil laugh then she said it.

I gotta tell him that tonight.

Gosh i just cant wait till he gets here!!!!

I'm picking him up at the Airport and then Striaght to my house!! ehehehe...

So before anything we can do he meets my parents!!!!

I really want him to be my last because i cant seem to live w/o him!

He makes me smile, mad, sad, angry, happy and many more!

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,LOVE,LOVE

can really play with us sometimes!!!!!

I will stay forever true to him and i hope he will too for me (even though he said he will)

I love My Sweet Love Houa Yang!

I can't describe the love i have for him!!!! and the love he have for me!!

MUAHS!!! XOXOXOXO!!

@10:59pm

Hunni and Me on Late Night

Hard Times

Hello,

It has been a long time! Over these previous months it hasnt been going so well.

We always argue and fight. There is not a day that goes by without being mad at eachother

at some point. Erg, i hate it. But as of right now we are getting back on track. He asked me to

marry him on Octber 23 2011. And still we were fighting afterwards. Sigh. There were many

times i feel like giving up but then again i can't.

I know we are just going through hard times and i'll just have to coop with it.

We always talk things out but then the same thing happen again. He said it was my fault

I had issues and I'm not patient enough. Am i really not patient enough? Was it all my fault?

He said like he didn't have anything to do with it. Then finally i guess i had enough and i can't

stand it anymore. So one night while he was gonna go to work i called him and he flipped on

me so i was so feed up with it and was like Fuck this, hang up on him.

He always call me during his break at work and for that whole night and day he didn't bother

to call me at all. And i too was like i'm not giving up on myself like i always do, so i didnt bother

to call him either. Dang, feel like break-up. It's like do i ever cross your mind? Do u ever think

wat in the world am i doing, or how i'm feeling? or can i even sleep at night?

Wat does the future hold for us? all we do is FIGHT and ARGUE!

Even if we fight or w/so ever, if he really care and love me he would still seek to comfort me

b/c i kno he know i needed him the most when it comes to these issues.

But then again he called me the next day and act as if nothing had happen.

He's all lovely dovey on me. It's like Cmon why werent u like this earlier

so we wouldnt have this awkward moment.

It's like are u putting up an act on me?? huh??

But yeah i told him i'm not gonna call him and let him call me b/c everytime i call him he fliped

on me all the time. there is not a time he answer the phone happy

to hear my voice or knowing that i am calling him.

So makes me come to an conclusion that he likes to chase me instead of us being equal.

If he calls me then there is no problem but if i call him we always ARGUE!

Yeah was it really all my fault? He got issues!

Yeah, it was pretty intense. He is secretive towards me. Everything, he blame it on me.

If he doesnt want to talk, STAY AWAY from him, sometimes i wonder wat it will be like if he was here with me.

Will it be more intense or calm? Will we be making up like we do it now or differently.

I hate it when he talks to harsh to me, gets me mad and feel anger.

It's like dude calm down, why are u so mean!!?!?! You dont have to say it so HARSH!

Well yeah I did feel like i was too on his case. I'm always asking questions but he should know by

now that i ask a lot of questions and that is just how i am.

I kno he is really busy, his parents depend on him. Everything is always against him

But i want to be there you well atleast tell me a little info,

he always tell, don't worry, i'll tell u later. Then later he doesnt even tell me.

Ergg i get irratated but yeah i guess now i learn to just not care so much.

Just let him do watever he wants to do and don't ask questions.

If i don't ask questions or w/so ever then yeah we are fine, no arguements.

But if i just as one question like can he repeat wat he said he gets all mad at me.

Well he said he wants to marry me this spring!!! and This DEcember he is Coming to SEE ME!!!!

OMG!!! I'm the happiest woman on earth when he comes!!! lmaol

ahaha yeah, we are okay for now. Just got off the phone with that bigbutt!

There he goes again pissed off at me about this little thing earlier. But we are ok ehehe

He's at work now.

Gosh i would hate to leave my parents. :(

Why cant he just move up here with his family. Then everything is going to be great.

His family is here and my family is there :)

But that will only be in my dreams, seems like they already is not gonna come up here.

Man those three months of arguement and disagreement and fights had made

me loose my mind!

you kno i'm a really patient person and not jealous at all.

But dang he got off the edge! like seriously.

Every little things he do bothers me and makes me mad. I do agree with him i do feel like i don;t

have any patience with him.

But from beginning i do patience but as things goes on i can't be patient anymore

he has really push the button for me to get mad all the time,

Anyways I'm tired its late. lmaol I'll update sooner or later.

@12:18am

IloveHouaYueYangForever

Trust Vs. Jealously

Atm, I'm waiting for his call. Lately we haven't been talking. Maybe we are over our exciting moments or something. Well i still have it but i feel like he lost it. Just last weekend he just meet up w/ his ex. And he tells me how much he realize he love me. But afterwards he doesnt call me like he said he would. So the days after that realization, he hasnt call me at the usual time b/c he was tired. Alrite i dont really understand am i losing trust is that why i notice all these missed phone calls and its starting to effects me. Usually he wouldnt go to sleep w/o saying goodnight. Even though its not through phone he'll text me. But he just leave me waiting for him for a good two niight striaght and he know i'm always waiting for him. I'm a person who doesnt like to show that i'm jealous even though i am still let him do w/e he wants to do. But i get very uneasy when he doesnt call me and his excuse is he's tired. I know we are tired but if u are tired why dont u just call me earlier and u can go to sleep its not like i'm not gonna do anything. SIGH. My trust is slowly fading away...and yet i still have hope that he still loves me and miss me as much as i miss him. i think i love him too much that i did stuff that i'm not suppose to do today. :) I'm too bad! i let my naive heart take over my logic mind! lmaol. Well i'm still waiting on him. Well see if he calls me tonight...........@10:55pm

Him and ME

May 6 2011 @ 9:44AM

Aw...I had a great night with him! :D He's so Sweet and Cute!

Sigh. I can't wait to see him!!